Hi. I was so excited to start this blog after seeing Julia and Julie (so cheesy I know, but what can I say!) Now I am sitting in front of my computer, and I have stage fright! Or better yet, blog-fright!
The reason I want to do this is because I have this dream to create something that I can't let go of. I feel like I am in the right place and the time is right and I need to make things happen for myself. I am dedicated and inspired to live my dreams. Why not!?
This blog is going to be my clutch (wish it wasn't so, but I promised myself I would be brutally honest for this whole experiment) for self discipline. If I know I have to report in, I will. My conscious is so, that if I know I HAVE to do something, well, simply, I must do it. I have noticed in the past I will get an idea, then spend all my time talking about how it isn't happening. Then I spend the next few bits of time talking about how bummed I am that it's not happening. Then I talk about how bummed I am that I let myself get bummed that my dream isn't happening. One of many vicious cycles. Not this time:)
This is for real. At least in this moment in time. And as I said to a new friend of mine. I am only here and it is only now:)
Since I am being brutally, and probably embarrassingly honest....I feel the need to disclose this little tidbit off the bad as well.....I have this tendency to feel...and think...that I cannot do anything by myself. Which of course is a false statement, but none the less, I feel like I NEED others in order to create this dream of mine. I am all about collaboration. But that is a very different thing than feeling at the mercy of others. So this blog is to serve me on a few different levels.
I have two guidelines for myself.
1. Be honest
2. Be so embarrassingly honest
The truth is...as I write this, I cant help but think...great another girl with another dream blogging about it. how freakin original.
But I am dedicated and as uncomfortable and weird it was for me to write this first entry...I have faith they will smooth out and hopefully at the end, I will see that I am proactive in making my dreams a reality. That I have created a life where I live in the present moment, with an open mind and and open heart. That magic, synchronicity and alignment really do exist. That life is about following your heart and your inner guidelines instead of what the general public deem as true.....which is a whole other entry in itself:) and proof that yes, it is the journey, not the destination that really matters. (even though I think I would instinctively go for instant gratification if I could!)
I have this card posted in front my desk that says...
Never let the odds
keep you from doing
what you know in your heart
you were meant to do!
(h.jackson brown jr.)
well....Mr H.Jackson Brown Jr. I am about to do just that:)
Thanks for reading...and I will be back tomorrow.
Aloha
love&gratitude
:)
1 comment:
:) love you!
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