day 11 of fortythree

wow. It has been awhile since I felt this exhausted. I love this kind of exhaustion though because it means I am working my mind and my body to it's fullest each day. Ok, probably a bit of an exaggeration, but I am using many a more cells than when I was clocking in and out of my nine to five:)

The culprit of my energy today, and yesterday and the day before is that fact that I haven't found the right name for my company. I would love to call it love&gratitude. But loveandgratitude.com is taken. Every single thing I see and hear I consider. Instead of letting things come to me, I am the hunter, searching for my prey. (ha, I can't believe I just thought that, and more so, typed it!) It's like I am breaking the golden rule of "let go and let god" or simply "allow". I can tell you, there is not alot of allowing and letting go. There is however, tightness and a wrinkle forming between my eyebrows from thinking about this so much. I am happy to have this higher self wisdom, but somehow the higher self and not-as-high self are operating in different lands. Can't we all just get along?!

As always, there is something deeper going on. Some might call this speculating a bit, but I see a pattern here. Focusing all my energy on something that isn't ready, racking my brain and worrying instead of using this energy on things I can accomplish, that are right infront of my face. So, I am letting go. Goodbye need to know the name of my company right this moment in time. Goodbye worrying that I wont find the perfect name. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

Hello creativity. Hello having fun researching, meeting people, making connections. Hello inspiration, motivation, love and the watermelon I put in the fridge to get cold because it was parked in the scorching sun outside the market all day today.

Hello momma (because I know you are my faithful reader!)
Hello anyone else that reads this as well:) I love you:)

Mahaloha - my homemade mixture of mahalo and aloha:)

xxxoo
goodnight
:)