day 22 of fortythree

Aloha world:)

I want so badly to say I am feeling smooth and relaxed, but in order to be honest with you and honest with myself, it is the contrary. I am feeling a bit confused, a bit doubted and totally unsure. What exactly am I trying to do with this clothing line and will I even be able to do it? What exactly am I doing with my life? And will I be able to do it? (yea, its one of those extreme kinda days....) I have just finished reading The Biology of Belief by Dr. Bruce Lipton and as inspiring and informative as it was, I am finding myself stuck in these "tapes". see below..

"tapes" From 0 - 6 our subconscious is formed. Especially from 2 - 6 when are brain waves are operating at the Theta frequency - which is when we get "programmed" so to say. The minds of children are so comprehensible and absorbent it's amazing. I always picture a cassette tape that has been plopped into my mind, playing all these stories of fear and self doubt. They are not my tapes and to be fair they aren't the tapes of my parents either. It is so important to remember that we are all doing the best we can with what we have. But back to the tapes for a moment. The tapes...well shoots, the whole entire library is housed in the subconscious mind. Which has been proven time and time again to be stronger than the conscious mind, especially in the "flight or fight" response. And is also conveniently our "default setting", how comforting to know that really truly, when shit hits the fan, we are more likely to fall into our old, unconscious, self-degrading, un-loving patterns! Yay! Lets hear it for our subconscious thought patterns!

Why is that important to know? Because when stress is introduced into our life, our bodies automatically go into fight or flight mode. Stress is the cause for I will say 90% of illnesses and dis-eases we experience today. It's not surprising that once again, we have this incredible built in tool for actually saving and preserving our livelihood which has been over used and taxed out due to our "modern day culture" The flight or fight response, as you may know is an incredibly intelligent built in safety tool. It allows all of our blood and energy to be redirected and used for getting the hell outta dangers way. How ironic that our "minds" seems to have replaced getting chased by mountain lions. So, every single time you stress out, say goodbye to digestive enzymes, say goodbye to blood smoothly circulating and nurturing your WHOLE body, say goodbye to the homeostatic balance that is needed to keep your nervous system, immune system, respiratory system in balance and running optimally. Say Hello to, high blood pressure, IBS, Constipation, Diarrhea, Chronic Headaches, Weight Gain, Depression, Low Energy, Diabetes, Chronic Fatigue, must I really go on???

It has been proven time and time again, disease = dis-ease. The missing link, and my passion in life is EDUCATING as many people as possible on the infinite power they have in determining the health, wealth and happiness of their own life. The government has been numbing our minds and dare I say....brainwashing us.....into thinking we are INCAPABLE! People, WE NEED TO WAKE UP! Now is our time. We have proven to ourselves that just popping pills aren't the answer, that quick fixes never work and the way we operate today is slowly killing us. More so, ITS NOT EVEN ENJOYABLE!

I really truly souly believe in my heart and my entire being that we can live in heaven on earth. We can educate ourselves on....who knew....OURSELVES! We have invested too much in other people. It is high time to stand in front of the mirror and say. Ok, I am starting here. We education, support, guidance and motivation to become aware of these "tapes" and understand they aren't ours and they really aren't anyone in particulars. We need to know that we can stop them, that we can change course, that we can CHANGE OUR BIOLOGY WITH OUR THOUGHTS.

Is this easy? Hell Freakin NO! I have been working on this for 27years. But I will tell you, life has never tasted sweeter than it does at this moment. (ok, so I am no longer in my crappy bummer mood) In reality, I have never felt so alive, so conscious and so responsible for me and my "INTERPRETATION" on life. After all, EVERYTHING IS RELATIVE:) I used to be afraid to speak out about how I was feeling, shit, I used to be afraid this really think about how I was feeling. If I was sad or bummed or depressed, I felt worse because I thought I should be happy and light and bubbly. If something bad happened I thought, Of course, I don't deserve good things, those things don't happen to me, blah sad story blah. But that's just the thing...they were STORIES....just not my true story.

So...once again I find myself at a mission statement. But instead of speaking in the future tense as if it hasn't happened and I am waiting for it to, I will speak as if I am doing and it is happening, ah the joys in the power of words and thoughts....ok so here we go....

I explode with world with unconditional love, understanding and compassion. I educate, inspire, encourage and support all beings who are ready to take responsibility for THEIR LIVES. I am a channel for love and energy. I am at the forefront of this amazing conscious shift where humans turn in for the answers. I am love. I am light. I am me...I am you. I guess the Beatles were spot on when they wrote the lyrics..."I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together". I will say that I do believe in God, some guiding force, and that we are that. Each and everyone of us are the same exact, while having the human ability to be completely ourselves!!!

ok folks....ci vediamo:)

ALOHA

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