Thursday, September 24, 2009

day 37 of fortythree


Accepting and opening ourselves to receive unconditional love. From self, from others & from the universe. Easier said than done, but none the less the results will far surpass the efforts. I do not know for sure, in personal experience as I still feel blocked in that area but my "higher self" knows that is an unquestionable truth.


Blocks. When we are young we are told to play with them. Here junior or juniorette, here are blocks in every shape and color, texture and density, alphabets, letters and colors oh my for you to build and create and ultimately demolish. Without a care in the world we built towers and castles, homes and fortresses to play out our childhood fantasies and dreams. We were free to create and explore the depths of our imagination and play roles that felt right or intrigued us. I would pretend to be an archaeologist. I would take my moms blush brush and walk around dusting everything looking for "discoveries". Skeletons, diamonds, jewels, I loved every second. When I grew tired of that dream I would move onto the next. No worries, no harm down.


Blocks these days are of a different kind. They are built out of nothing more than our deranged constructed stories, yet feel more concrete than a New York City sidewalk....at 5:30pm...on a wednesday. We may not even know where or why they came to be, but come to be they have. These blocks have taught me a thing or two the hard way, and I am just now learning how to navigate through them with grace and a bit of poise. They used to sabotage my life. Cut me down, spin me 'round and spit me the heck out....but only because I let them.


Follow your soul. Listen to your heart. Do what feels right, even if your mind reasons it as wrong. Life is here to be experienced. Life is here to be enjoyed. my best friend is the perfect example of that and I hope she reads this so she knows how much I admire her for just that. Be grateful for your past, but let it go. Be in the moment, here and now and give out what you intend to receive.


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