day 26 of fortythree

*before I start on today's blog, I need to pre and post excuse my grammar. I never edit my entries and for the first time re-read them the other day. Though's that should be thoughts.... I get so caught up in transferring the info from my mind THROUGH the hands and onto these keys that grammar has taken a back seat:) Thanks for understanding and pardoning, I will be more conscious from now on:)

Today I went to Golden Gate Park to take part in the Power to the Peaceful free concert featuring Michael Franti and Alanis Morrisette. http://powertothepeaceful.org/?page_id=48 I much before the former over the latter:) It was incredible to be surrounded by such high vibes and incredibly powerful and positive music...FOR FREE!! Lucky for me there were tons of booths selling local made clothes, many tee shirts with a message. I am always inspired and motivated when I see other people doing what I am in the process of creating. It is very interesting to me that many of these local businesses were created from a boyfriend/girlfriend husband/wife team. To me it makes perfect sense. As much as we all want to do things all by ourselves, there is something to be said for the balance of masculine and feminine, yin and yang, cheech and chong:) On a deeper level, something is being born out of love (without the morning sickness and rest-of-your-life-responsibility) I find perfection in this. Perhaps its because I am a cheesey love-a-holic, but who cares!

I should start L-A-H-A "LOVE-A-HOLICS-ANONYMOS"

I left the concert feeling like this mission of mine is to get this message out in a big way. I will get this message out in a big way. The more and more comfortable and confident I feel talking about this idea, the more and more people I meet who feel the same way. I have met so many people who WANT TO FEEL GOOD, WANT TO BE CONSCIOUS, WANT TO LOVE LIFE and WANT TO UNDERSTAND and QUESTION WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT.

I ended up talking for a few minutes with a nice fellow who lives here in Berkeley and was working for his buddy selling tee shirts. We got to talking about how people feel uncomfortable feeling their feelings when they are "negative. As if its not ok to feel sad or bummed or plain old pissed off. This topic really struck home for me because I have felt that way. I feel being conscious and present means allowing and being true to your feelings. Its more so how we "react" that we need to be conscious of. Just because we are feeling shitty doesn't pave the way to treating everyone who crosses our path....shitty. But I think it is important to welcome all feelings. To be true to ourselves in every moment.

Sometimes we feel great and beautiful and confident and outgoing and on top of the world. We step outside and the world supports our strut. Other times our energy mellows out, we need to slow down, we need time to reflect, connect and feel whats going on in our lives. Both sides of the coin equally important.

So here is to the sunshine and here is to the rainy day.

Aloveha:)