Today is September 11th, 2009. I would like to take a moment of peace in my body to be thankful for all life has to offer on this day. To send my love to those who are no longer in the physical, to their families of those who lost loved ones and to all of humanity. I want to send my love to those who have angered me, upset me and frustrated me. I want to send my love to everyone. Especially our men and women who are over seas, especially to the men and women and children and pets overseas who no longer remember what life was like before "war". I want to take this time and infuse the vibration of today with LOVE & GRATITUDE FOR ALL BEINGS. AS WE ARE ALL ONE AND THE SAME.
Today, I will be conscious to see all as one. To put myself in others shoes and see myself in everything, and everything in myself. I am responsible for my actions, my thoughts and my behavior. I invite you to do the same.
-----------TAKE A BIG BREATHE & THANK YOURSELF & LOVE YOURSELF-----------
The reason this is a triple decker post is because I was feeling so crumbalicious the past few days, I simply didn't feel like writing about it. Not to mention I was sans (without) internet for 2 days and I am not operating without an antivirus...oh no! hahaha:) Its like having unprotected sex with millions of strangers, but worse!!!!!
ok, so catch you up to speed here is a snapshot of what has happened.
1 week ago I thought, holy shit, what am I going to do for the month of October? Then I thought, holy shit, what I am doing...period! (hence the beginning of last blog) I started to feel really down. I started feeling heavy and bummed:( It is interesting because nothing had changed....drum roll.....but my PERCEPTION! ok, so on with the story.
I had no idea and was feeling a bit lost. I was conscious that I was feeling the way I was but didn't feel like cheering myself up. Sometimes we gotta feel what is inside. I think it is important to acknowledge all of our feelings, not just sort through and pick the bright shiny ones:) Ok, ok, back to the story for real. Tuesday, 2pm I am in the tenderloin neighborhood of SF taking my final tutorial with Antonio - my Romanian digital know-how when my phone rings and a gentleman named Travis is on the other line. Travis works for a local radio station K-PIG (which if you know me is hilarious because I LOOOOOOOOOVE pigs) telling me that I won three-day passes, hotel and round trip airfare for 2 to AUSTIN CITY LIMITS!http://2009.aclfestival.com/
pardon me Antonio for a minute..I turn and SCREAM!!! HOLY SHIT!!! FOR REAL???
I had forgot a few weeks ago, while I was dropping off film from my new Diana F http://microsites.lomography.com/diana/ at a local photo shop, I had filled out one of those postcard like things that you drop in the box. Seriously though, I have been filling them out since my family went to Woo's Hunan Chinese Restaurant in Suffern NY back in the early 90's. I think I filled one out for my cat Sunkist once, and he won a trip to an RV show. But I have never won anything like this ever. WOW. But the great news doesn't stop there. And actually doesn't stop for quite some time. The concert is a 3 day all day event, and since I am flying from the west coast, they suggested I come a night before so I don't miss anything on Friday. An extra night on you blessed company..sure thing! They are also flying my partner in crime in from a different location. They have also extended my trip an entire week so I can visit with my best friend who just moved to Padre Island..... I basically am getting a free trip for almost 2 weeks to TEXAS:) MAHALO MAHALO MAHALO NUI LOA UNIVERSE!!!
Luck? Maybe? But I CHOOSE happiness. I CHOOSE to be responsible for my actions and my thoughts. Maybe this is the kind of stuff that happens when we stay positive and live in the high vibrations of LOVE&GRATITUDE! (ok, with a side of super lucky as well!!)
Many people ask me why and how I could have ever left life on Kauai. But we need change in order to grow and sometimes that change comes in the literal version of get up, get moving and get changing! When I first moved to the Bay Area, of course I though, What the heck did I just do??? Really Lauren? Really? But now, more than half a year later and I am so thrilled with my chutzpah http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/chutzpah to leave my warm and familiar comfort zone. I have once again learned an incredible amount about myself, my abilities and what I want in my life and what I want to give in my life. I have made home in another beautiful location and have created family where I once felt alone. (hahahahah, I'm sorry but that last line really made me laugh at myself!!!! hahahah!!) I have been thinking about what to do for the winter as far as staying in the East bay or moving on. I have been open, allowing myself to be guided and supported and I let go because to be honest, I really have no idea how things are going to turn out. I only know how I want to feel. So yesterday, the bat-phone rang, I answered and mama Kauai was on the other line. She said, Hunny Child, come on back for the winter! I didn't have to think about it. It FELT so right in my body. I had a previous ticket back to Kauai that expired Nov 3rd, so I booked it for the Oct 29th. WOW. 7 days ago I was bumming and had no plan. Today, I am on top of the world and so grateful and blissed out! What is awesome is I get to pay all these feelings and vibes forward to everyone!!!
As far as my business goes. It is still full steam ahead. I work continuously on it everyday. To be honest (yet again) I work on it every moment of everyday because it is a reflection of who I am. I have done exactly what I wanted to do here in the bay area. I have made extremely important contacts and established relationships that will last lifetimes (since they already have!) I have dialed into a clear focus on what and how I want to create and I have started on my way. I found it to be so challenging to accomplish things before I had the mission to create this clothing line (for real). I had all this energy and urge to create - but no outlet. So I am plugged in and charging everyday. Oh my god, am I really this cheesy??? seems so:)
With just under a month and half - which we know can change worlds, I plan on utilizing every second to propel myself closer to my goal. I will have 5 designs ready to go before I leave and I will have contract to sell in 5 stores in the bay area.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU:)
love&gratitude
aloha&mahalo
HAVE THE BEST DAY EVER!!!
xxoo
:)
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