day 29-35 of forty three

Aloha world!

I have taken a small break from writing because I felt I wasn't accomplishing much and didn't think anyone would want to hear about what I was doing while I wasn't doing what I set out to do.....right.

Anyway, life, as I keep learning IS NOT about what we think we are SUPPOSED to or SHOULD BE doing. My best friend has a ring that says it all. It is the journey, not the destination.

I will write more towards the end of the day, but after some care and concern from some dear friends, I realized I needed to get "blogging" again!

9:29pm Monday, September the 21st, 35th day out of 43. holy schmeggegies! (my mom is visiting and her yiddish sayings are definately rubbing off on me!)

Patience, compassion, patience, compassion, patience, compassion.

I have been finding myself in an interesting place the past two weeks. I am not a violent person by nature, but I keep picturing a boxing ring with "american culture" in one corner and "universal truth" in the other. American culture "AC" throws out a punch screaming you have nothing to show for yourself, you are 27years old and havent even lived in the same place for more than 24months. You are single, financially surviving, but far from thriving, you have no assets, or savings, or stocks. You say you want to start this company, but where is your product? what is your plan? how will you do it? WHAM. Universal Truth "UT" comes back from being wailed in the face as if nothing has happened. There are no guidelines to life besides what feels right for you. There is no timeline waiting to be filled in on the dotted lines. Time doesn't exist. Your fear is not real. Finances do not make you. Everything is happening exactly as it should be. Let go. Let go. Let go.

AC - 5

UT - 12

stay tuned.

I only feel this, on my 35th day of blogging; If you dont believe in yourself, who can you believe in. If you dont take on risk on yourself, well what the heck do you expect out of life. Just do it. Whatever is in your heart, give yourself a fair chance. You have nothing to loose and simply everything in your wildest imagination to gain. (which can get pretty wild for some people!) If it really is about the journey, well than make it one to remember. Let yourself get burnt, let yourself learn there are more ways than one to cut a cake - or slice a pie or whatever the saying is. Sheer a sheep?! I have spent the past month and a half and more or less the past 15 years studying and learning about all these incredible esoteric life teachings, writings, ancient texts and new discoveries and and it still doesn't change what feels right before it has the chance to register with my brain.

WE ARE REALLY GENIUSES IN DISGUISE! I CRACKED THE CODE!! HALLELUJAH!!!

ok...this little genius is tired. and promises to write tomorrow. and also promises to up the content anty:)

Aloha

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As Heidi Klum says, in the world of blogging, sometimes your in. sometimes your out.

*disclosure - the time on the clock is not a true estimate of my actual return:)

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xxoo